soooo lonely

I AM FEELING SO SAD RIGHT NOW AND SO LONELY. ALTHOUGH I HATE HER, WHEN SHE IS AROUND SHE MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I'M CROWDED WITH PEOPLE THAT CARES FOR ME WHEN I DON'T REALLY EXPECT IT. NOW, AESYA IS GOING ON A HOLIDAY AT DAMAI LAUT STARTING SUNDAY. THE "SHE" THAT I MEANT WAS NUR AINI. KIND OF ANNOYING BUT THAT IS THE ONE MISSING RIGHT NOW. THE FEELING TO TELL HER TO KEEP QUIET. HER DESPERATION IN SURFING THE INTERNET. TONIGHT I GOT TO GO AND SLEEP AT MY GRANDMA'S HOUSE. MY PARENTS ARE GOING TO PAHANG FOR A KENDURI OF SOME SORT. AND ALTHOUGH I COULD STILL CHAT WITH AESYA, THAT IS NOT WHAT I AM WAITING FOR ALL MY LIFE. I REALLY WANT AN ELDER SISTER OR MAYBE A YOUNGER SISTER, NOT SOME USELESS BROTHERS OF MINE. TO MY DEAR BLOG READERS, DON'T EVER SAY MY YOUNGER BROTHER IS CUTE. WHEN YOU DO, AND WE ARE BACK AT HOME, HE IS SOME HORROR. HE SHOUTS LIKE HE SEES A GHOST OR SUMTHIN IN FRONT OF HIM. I JUST HATE MY LIFE. IF I CAN'T GET A SISTER, I WOULD FEEL LIKE LIVING ALONE WITH MY MAID IS BETTER THAN EVERYTHING! I ASK MY DAD" WHY DON'T WE STAY IN KL NEAR OUR RELATIVES?" HE WOULD SAY "SO WHAT IF WE ARE NEAR WITH OUR RELATIVES? YOU DON'T EXACTLY NEED THEM, RIGHT? YOU HAVE YOUR BROTHERS. HAVE FUN PLAYING WITH THEM IF YOU ARE FEELING BORED, THEN." WELL, AS YOU CAN SEE MY LIFE IS DRIVING MYSELF NUTS! NOT LIKE THIS GIRL FROM MY SCHOOL WHO LIKES SAYING SHE HATES HER MOTHER FOR NO REASONS WHEN HER MOM IS SO DAMN AWESOME!