sad,sad,sad. i feel so emo 2day!

I feel so unlucky. All I want was just to play a musical instrument. Since I was 6, I've been begging to my dad but I just know it's hopeless. To my dad, he would just say, "Nantilah lepas UPSR ke ayah tengok dulu," and now I still can't hold on to his words. He often promise but all I get are specs of dust. Then my dad said I could ask for a present for the trial and real UPSR test. And then my mom said just for the real test. I got so confused I feel like my brain was going to explode! Not just today but also the days that have past. I've always felt so emo and so agressive..... I know if I ask my dad about playing the piano, I'm so sure he is totally gonna say no. but come to think of it, now I'm lost in the music of the violin and flute. So now, I know I've got hope for it but still my mom would disagree. I know she would say no because what's in her head is that to say, "STUDY,STUDY,STUDY,STUDY!" Everything is just HOPELESS! Now I know it's just so hard to soften our parents' hearts cause they could hardly change!