soooo lonely

I AM FEELING SO SAD RIGHT NOW AND SO LONELY. ALTHOUGH I HATE HER, WHEN SHE IS AROUND SHE MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I'M CROWDED WITH PEOPLE THAT CARES FOR ME WHEN I DON'T REALLY EXPECT IT. NOW, AESYA IS GOING ON A HOLIDAY AT DAMAI LAUT STARTING SUNDAY. THE "SHE" THAT I MEANT WAS NUR AINI. KIND OF ANNOYING BUT THAT IS THE ONE MISSING RIGHT NOW. THE FEELING TO TELL HER TO KEEP QUIET. HER DESPERATION IN SURFING THE INTERNET. TONIGHT I GOT TO GO AND SLEEP AT MY GRANDMA'S HOUSE. MY PARENTS ARE GOING TO PAHANG FOR A KENDURI OF SOME SORT. AND ALTHOUGH I COULD STILL CHAT WITH AESYA, THAT IS NOT WHAT I AM WAITING FOR ALL MY LIFE. I REALLY WANT AN ELDER SISTER OR MAYBE A YOUNGER SISTER, NOT SOME USELESS BROTHERS OF MINE. TO MY DEAR BLOG READERS, DON'T EVER SAY MY YOUNGER BROTHER IS CUTE. WHEN YOU DO, AND WE ARE BACK AT HOME, HE IS SOME HORROR. HE SHOUTS LIKE HE SEES A GHOST OR SUMTHIN IN FRONT OF HIM. I JUST HATE MY LIFE. IF I CAN'T GET A SISTER, I WOULD FEEL LIKE LIVING ALONE WITH MY MAID IS BETTER THAN EVERYTHING! I ASK MY DAD" WHY DON'T WE STAY IN KL NEAR OUR RELATIVES?" HE WOULD SAY "SO WHAT IF WE ARE NEAR WITH OUR RELATIVES? YOU DON'T EXACTLY NEED THEM, RIGHT? YOU HAVE YOUR BROTHERS. HAVE FUN PLAYING WITH THEM IF YOU ARE FEELING BORED, THEN." WELL, AS YOU CAN SEE MY LIFE IS DRIVING MYSELF NUTS! NOT LIKE THIS GIRL FROM MY SCHOOL WHO LIKES SAYING SHE HATES HER MOTHER FOR NO REASONS WHEN HER MOM IS SO DAMN AWESOME!

soooo lonely

sad,sad,sad. i feel so emo 2day!

I feel so unlucky. All I want was just to play a musical instrument. Since I was 6, I've been begging to my dad but I just know it's hopeless. To my dad, he would just say, "Nantilah lepas UPSR ke ayah tengok dulu," and now I still can't hold on to his words. He often promise but all I get are specs of dust. Then my dad said I could ask for a present for the trial and real UPSR test. And then my mom said just for the real test. I got so confused I feel like my brain was going to explode! Not just today but also the days that have past. I've always felt so emo and so agressive..... I know if I ask my dad about playing the piano, I'm so sure he is totally gonna say no. but come to think of it, now I'm lost in the music of the violin and flute. So now, I know I've got hope for it but still my mom would disagree. I know she would say no because what's in her head is that to say, "STUDY,STUDY,STUDY,STUDY!" Everything is just HOPELESS! Now I know it's just so hard to soften our parents' hearts cause they could hardly change!

crisis everywhere

to all my muslim friends and of course family members, SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI. MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN. anyways, my crisis with sandy has not end yet. furthermore with K not aqround, im happy and releifed. all that ABBA thing has made me sick. i mean i love abba but why the heck she wanna be sooooo obsessed with it? LOL. and to her, have a Great trip to wherever. SNTD. and by the way, sarah, i know once you meet my cousin,A, you can know she is such a show off! but then that's quite impossible, though. she is the most miserable kid i have ever known. and guess what, she is 12 this year! and the worst part is, she is so overconfident she could get 5 A's. and she didn't even do well in her trial. such lame people. i just don't get her. she even said Gaiaonline is fantastic. even i know it's lame. what a gal. What I hate most is that, she has a PSP. Then everytime she comes to my house or grandma's house, she would show it to EVERYONE in the house. but the weird hing is that the PSP is not hers. Its her brothers. And she won't let anyone play but her brother does! such a fucking bitch. she is so shitting fresh. XD

ha........ such relaxation! NOT!!!!!!!

hye again. soooo long since the very moment of sacrifice. I meant by UPSR. I could have just squeezed so much of brain juice, now I've gone nutcase. And today the worst thing has made me feel like SANDY is not existing any longer. She just ask some bitch to play at the table where I'm sitting in school without my permission. And didn't say sorry! How rude is she? I just don't get her. She just wanna make people feel angry with her when she knows she had made tons of lies to me! Such a major bitch! maybe like brenda loo or melissa but at least they're nicer than that loser
Now all this anger is making me so unhappy, I just gotta shout out loud! My mom was so shock, she could've got a heart attack by then! hahaha. to zatin- please invite me to read ur blog and thanx!!!!

jeng jeng jeng

4 days 'till UPSR. I just cannot believe this is the day I decide to make this blog. I know I seem to be left behind in this situation. And I just cannot believe i didn't open my FRIENDSTER for ages. I just hope the girl named Sandy (not the real name) in my class doesn't find out i write a blog. She would boast and say"oh, blog. kami pun ade jugak. cume kami terpadam je. nanti lepas test kami nak buat balik." I think about 95% of the pupils in my class hates her. (Zatin knows) She pernah said yang she have an email. tapi i tak ingat what because it isn't important to memorize it. I hope my friend the "I Know, Right" gal read this. And I'm hoping she would laugh her head off. HaHa. what a B****. I could hardly believe in every word that Sandy says. I just hate her but then how am I suppose to tell her that I wanna be her (arch) enemy when she is sitting right beside me?!?!?! to my dear classmates, please i am beggin'. TELL ME WHAT TO DO!oh yeah, i don't wanna tell many people about this blog 'cause i don't even know the objective of this blog.......T_T